100 words about nothing: a high school poem not actually written in high school

when we say 'nothing' obviously we don't mean actually 'nothing'
we mean 'there's a hole in my soul damn it'
we mean 'if you loved me you would already know'
we mean 'heart locked up tight like a diplomat's briefcase'
we mean to say it but then nothing comes out

how much sweeter to just say nothing at all
to expect nothing out of words words what are words
that one crinkled-up sideways look is a thesis a soliloquy
listen to the nothing like buddha or a blue jay
understand the vast difference between foul 'nothing' and beautiful nothing